Once upon a time when I forgot something especially in the middle of a conversation I would state I had a brain fart. As we age I have heard elderly people state they had a seniors moment. Now post stroke I state I had a stroke moment...or I'm having a stroke moment.
It's alarming how many times this happens to me now. I realize that I need to focus more now than ever and try to get to the point without branching off into other directions...this is challenging for me...those who know me understand this well.
A resent example that stands out for me happened at the first hockey practice I coached this year. Since I don't skate yet the players come to me at the bench and I draft up the drill on a dry erase board. Prior to doing this I made a mental note that I needed to tell the players to stay onside while doing the drill. The drill had a give and go coming out of our zone and then back over the blue line into the now offensive zone. I drafted it out and they all got it although I knew I had one last point to convey prior to sending them out to do it...a stroke moment. Out they went, I watched the drill and them consistently go over the blue line before the puck (going offside) then I remembered "ah ya, don't go offside" too late at that point, not having a strong voice yet and not being on the ice to utter the verbal correction, the drill went on. I don't like to practice bad habits.
Another example of this happens a lot with names, I see someone and have known them for years, they say Hi and I say Hi and battle my brain for their name...usually 12 to 14 hours later I remember, not that it helps then.
After reading the Walter Gretzky book and noting he had daily to do lists...quite comprehensive in the beginning and I assume it got shorter, like mine. I still make many to do lists, not just a grocery list but lists of things I need to do. I joked with my mother that it was my memory list...I still do it and with technology I can do it on my cell phone to take with me. My lists get shorter and sometimes I don't have to make them but a pad of paper still sits on my living room table and I do use it to remind myself of things...things to do, things to buy, things to say, things of importance that I will likely forget later. My father makes the big mistake making his list or should I say lists, too many of them in too many different places and then forgets where the lists are. Time goes by and I sense my memory is getting better...likely by using and challenging it.
I am a survivor of a catastrophic stroke and created this blog with hopes of passing information onto others to hopefully identify and seek help in order to save a life or abilities and to give reassurance that things in life change post stroke survival, things will be different than the hopeless state we are in immediately after surviving. To paraphrase Michael J. Fox, there is a difference between acceptance and resignation. Accepting things happen but not resigned that things will be forever.
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Monday, February 14, 2011
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