Friday, January 28, 2011

Balance

Balance continues to be one of my biggest problems along with the functioning of the right eye.
A stroke survivor I met described her initial vision problems as bouncing...I thought that was a pretty accurate description however I will qualify that my right eye drifts...when I'm tired or moving it seems to not want to isolate its focus on what I'm looking at, it drifts in a different direction. In the beginning I could not identify a speck or crumb on the floor. Now I'm getting better with this because my eye seems to stay isolated on the area I'm looking at, except when I'm moving or when I get tired. I notice when I walk or the few times I've attempted jogging I blink a lot trying to reset the focus of the right eye.
I have an appointment with an eye specialist in March and hope that something good comes from it. I suspect it has a big impact on my balance and without that I haven't felt stable enough to skate or get back into the work force.

Keeping an optimistic and determined attitude over the last two years has been one of the biggest challenges of recovery, some of my friends indicate that just going through one of the issues I have been dealing with would be enough for someone to call it quits on life. I have been there many times but ultimately I remind myself of the fact my life will come to an end whether I want it to or not, so I don't need to rush the inevitable.